I’ve been cutting out everything hoping my suffering would end
No more coffee or partying, taking up jogging again
Monitoring my screen time and I hate to report
that I haven’t been cured
I’ve been paying attention to everything on the news for once
Thought that if I knew everything, I’d control anything, but that was dumb
Started burning all my time til I thought it was done
but it’s only round one
[Chorus:]
They’re telling me that
it’s gonna hurt, it’s gonna take effort
it’s gonna get worse before it gets better
but I just don’t wanna wait to be not in pain
All this time braving the weather
It feels like it’s been raining forever
And I try and try, I can’t get dry
I don’t know why I can’t just be ok
I can’t just be ok
I’ve been watching the same old show 20 times in a row for fun
Rice-A-Roni and sweatpants, cancelling my plans with everyone
Keep on looking for bright sides and I’m coming up short
Always stuck in the storm
[Chorus]
I can’t just be ok
Try to keep my head up high, but I can barely see the sky
Was it ever easy? Am I romanticizing
how the sun felt on my skin, all the fresh air I breathed in?
If I said that this will end, would I be fantasizing?
They’re telling me that
it’s gonna hurt, it’s gonna take effort
it’s gonna get worse before it gets better
but I just don’t wanna wait to be not in pain (I just can’t wait)
All this time braving the weather
It feels like it’s been raining forever
And I try and try, I can’t get dry (I try, I try)
I don’t know why I can’t just be ok
I can’t just be ok (I try and try, I can’t get dry, I don’t know why)
I can’t just be ok (I try and try, I can’t get dry, I don’t know why)
I can’t just be ok
Published to streaming services May 28, 2021